I fucking hate myself.

Playlist · curated by Bart Vanstreefdijke · 10,599 followers · 103 songs

Tracks

1. Dear Carl I Forgot Who I Was Gigi Masin Call Me — Umaher, Soupy, Hosliex
2. Need 2 — Pinegrove, Pinegrove
3. Zeldas Lullaby — A L E X, A L E X, A L E X
4. Memory — Alex G, Alex G, Alex G
5. Know Now — Alex G, Alex G, Alex G
6. Bye. — Mia Smith, Mia Smith
7. pretend — sandy g archive, sandy g archive
8. ceilings — Lizzy McAlpine, Lizzy McAlpine
9. Scott Street — Phoebe Bridgers, Phoebe Bridgers, Phoebe Bridgers
10. Me and the Birds — Duster, Duster
11. Cold — sign crushes motorist, sign crushes motorist
12. Become the Warm Jets — Current Joys, Current Joys
13. everything against me — tado, TheExorcist, abece
14. The Loneliness — Azulalp, Unjaps, lonerfeels
15. it hurts so bad — kxrrvpt, kxrrvpt
16. DIDN’T MAKE IT PAST 40: Melancholy Alternate Ending — SAB3R 2, Tordor, SAB3R 2
17. interlinked — kxrrvpt, The Lonely Tree, The Lonely Tree
18. Fika — ciaffa, Sinom, fedo DJ
19. Quotes Constant Pain — Quotes Real, Jessi Levinson, DJ Flex EUJ
20. Without Her — Azulalp, fallen down, core²
21. if i disappear, who cares? (interlinked) — ciaffaprodd, ciaffaprodd, ciaffaprodd
22. Core — Azulalp, ciaffa, fedo DJ
23. Mary — Alex G, Alex G, Alex G
24. Constellations — Duster, Duster
25. loser monologue — sign crushes motorist, sign crushes motorist
26. My Kind of Woman - Instrumental — Mac DeMarco, Mac DeMarco, Mac DeMarco
27. i threw a rock off an overpass and killed a guy — sign crushes motorist, sign crushes motorist
28. No Longer Be There — Azulalp, Azulalp
29. My Kind of Woman — Mac DeMarco, Mac DeMarco, Mac DeMarco
30. Better — sign crushes motorist, sign crushes motorist
31. Inside Out — Duster, Duster
32. aisatsana [102] — Aphex Twin, Aphex Twin
33. green to blue - slowed + reverbed — daniel.mp3, daniel.mp3, daniel.mp3
34. The Beach (Instrumental Muffled) — mxpheebz, Lil Swervo Jr., lost hope.
35. His Fear Interlude — C4 Da Don, C4 Da Don
36. Worry — Azulalp, Azulalp
37. I Wait for You — alex_g_offline, alex_g_offline, AlexgReleased
38. Suicide Cleanup — Birth Day, Birth Day, Birth Day
39. Call Me — Gigi Masin, Gigi Masin
40. Stars Will Fall — Duster, Duster
41. QKThr - Slowed — Goomp, Goomp, Goomp
42. all alone in the rain — The Lonely Tree, The Lonely Tree, The Lonely Tree
43. Heart To Heart — Mac DeMarco, Mac DeMarco, Mac DeMarco
44. Silenthill, in my restless dreams — Azulalp, Unjaps, JIMRO!
45. Not Allowed (Slowed + Reverb) — Kapa Boy, Kapa Boy
46. Wish — sign crushes motorist, sign crushes motorist
47. Goodnight Dad I Love You — Wishing, Wishing
48. Boyhood — Birth Day, Birth Day, Birth Day
49. Mary - Guitar Version — noturgf, noturgf, dz4s
50. Break (Alex G) — ericslake, w3bcam, ericslake

Recent changes

• 2026-11-08: − it hurts so bad (The Lonely Tree) (was at position 14)
• 2026-11-08: + it hurts so bad (kxrrvpt) at position 14
• 2026-11-08: − if i diseappear, who cares? (interlinked) (cfxvsc) (was at position 20)
• 2026-11-08: + if i disappear, who cares? (interlinked) (ciaffaprodd) at position 20
• 2026-11-06: − it hurts so bad (kxrrvpt) (was at position 14)
• 2026-11-06: + it hurts so bad (The Lonely Tree) at position 14
• 2026-11-06: − if i disappear, who cares? (interlinked) (ciaffaprodd) (was at position 20)
• 2026-11-06: + if i diseappear, who cares? (interlinked) (cfxvsc) at position 20
• 2026-11-05: − it hurts so bad (The Lonely Tree) (was at position 14)
• 2026-11-05: + it hurts so bad (kxrrvpt) at position 14
• 2026-11-05: − if i diseappear, who cares? (interlinked) (cfxvsc) (was at position 20)
• 2026-11-05: + if i disappear, who cares? (interlinked) (ciaffaprodd) at position 20
• 2026-11-04: − it hurts so bad (kxrrvpt) (was at position 14)
• 2026-11-04: + it hurts so bad (The Lonely Tree) at position 14
• 2026-11-04: − if i disappear, who cares? (interlinked) (ciaffaprodd) (was at position 20)
• 2026-11-04: + if i diseappear, who cares? (interlinked) (cfxvsc) at position 20
• 2026-09-21: − it hurts so bad (The Lonely Tree) (was at position 14)
• 2026-09-21: + it hurts so bad (kxrrvpt) at position 14
• 2026-09-21: − if i diseappear, who cares? (interlinked) (cfxvsc) (was at position 20)
• 2026-09-21: + if i disappear, who cares? (interlinked) (ciaffaprodd) at position 20
• 2026-09-21: − you know i love u (Saltyngget) (was at position 81)
• 2026-09-21: + you know i love u (vic) at position 81
• 2026-08-12: − you know i love u (vic) (was at position 81)
• 2026-08-12: + you know i love u (Saltyngget) at position 81
• 2026-07-22: − it hurts so bad (kxrrvpt) (was at position 14)
• 2026-07-22: + it hurts so bad (The Lonely Tree) at position 14
• 2026-07-22: − if i disappear, who cares? (interlinked) (ciaffaprodd) (was at position 20)
• 2026-07-22: + if i diseappear, who cares? (interlinked) (cfxvsc) at position 20

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